time has been going by so fast, i forgot to stop and realize the bigger things. i miss my dad -- or i mean, the memories. every morning when he takes me to school, or buys me breakfast and i don't even eat it, and everything - I just don't appreciate him enough. and when he tells me things such as "i went to the casino last night trying to win the jackpot for you. i want to get you your camera, laptop, and everything before your birthday. i want to put all of those things in a box for you as a surprise. thanksgiving is coming up, and it might be my last. i want to try to make this one the best for the family."
makes me cry,... and i know he really tries hard to make me happy. actually, he tries to make EVERYONE happy putting everyone else infront of himself. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me, always taking things for granted. i'm such a spoiled bitch, i wanna die. [okay nevermind, too much exaggeration] I'm just so mad for being selfish, ignorant, and mean.
I love my dad. and if you're wondering, he has some type of sickness. I'm not really sure what it is, because I don't want to know what exactly he has. There's some things that are just better left unsaid.
I've been having such an awkward day today. i think it's the weather change. It's really cold, I mean-- I like it and all, but it's going to take awhile for me to get used to. I think it might rain tomorrow, and we have a basketball game outside since JV + Varsity are playing in the gym. so that means no one is going to watch our game, and especially if it rains. I don't know if I'm going to play because I barely got my physical today and I didn't even get to practice.
Wednesday we have minimum day at school, and then a 4day weekend here we come. black friday? Someone hand me plans, hehe. i'll probably get a new camera that weekend, possibly. I think I have basketball practice on saturday though, and wednesday too I think. Wow, basketball is filling up my blank spaces, I like it.
I've been racking up compliments about my blog, it makes me happy, REALLY happy. but the only compliments I hear is "Your blog is so interesting", haha. that's cute I guess, so um.. THANK YOU :)
So I edited my myspace today.. not really. I just added a lot of pictures, heeh. throwback kinda pictures, i guess.. not really I DON'T KNOW. go look at www.myspace.com/24526405 ahaha, yes i do remember my friend id.
I got a schedule change at school! since i added basketball, it became a 7th period. and then now i don't start first period meaning school officially starts at 8:12 a.m. for me now. but it used to start at 7:11. I like waking up really early, but I got advice that basketball is going to make me super tired and I wouldn't wanna wake up an hour earlier. [?] Kinda stupid if you ask me.
victoria asked to see my hair when it was a fauxhawk haha. here are old pictures / transformation of my hair i guess. ~*THROWBACK*~
sorry, hehe. man, i used to be cute. UGH..
makes me cry,... and i know he really tries hard to make me happy. actually, he tries to make EVERYONE happy putting everyone else infront of himself. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me, always taking things for granted. i'm such a spoiled bitch, i wanna die. [okay nevermind, too much exaggeration] I'm just so mad for being selfish, ignorant, and mean.
I love my dad. and if you're wondering, he has some type of sickness. I'm not really sure what it is, because I don't want to know what exactly he has. There's some things that are just better left unsaid.
I've been having such an awkward day today. i think it's the weather change. It's really cold, I mean-- I like it and all, but it's going to take awhile for me to get used to. I think it might rain tomorrow, and we have a basketball game outside since JV + Varsity are playing in the gym. so that means no one is going to watch our game, and especially if it rains. I don't know if I'm going to play because I barely got my physical today and I didn't even get to practice.
Wednesday we have minimum day at school, and then a 4day weekend here we come. black friday? Someone hand me plans, hehe. i'll probably get a new camera that weekend, possibly. I think I have basketball practice on saturday though, and wednesday too I think. Wow, basketball is filling up my blank spaces, I like it.
I've been racking up compliments about my blog, it makes me happy, REALLY happy. but the only compliments I hear is "Your blog is so interesting", haha. that's cute I guess, so um.. THANK YOU :)
So I edited my myspace today.. not really. I just added a lot of pictures, heeh. throwback kinda pictures, i guess.. not really I DON'T KNOW. go look at www.myspace.com/24526405 ahaha, yes i do remember my friend id.
I got a schedule change at school! since i added basketball, it became a 7th period. and then now i don't start first period meaning school officially starts at 8:12 a.m. for me now. but it used to start at 7:11. I like waking up really early, but I got advice that basketball is going to make me super tired and I wouldn't wanna wake up an hour earlier. [?] Kinda stupid if you ask me.
victoria asked to see my hair when it was a fauxhawk haha. here are old pictures / transformation of my hair i guess. ~*THROWBACK*~
sorry, hehe. man, i used to be cute. UGH..
my day, ? it's been bothering me so much that my mom seriously wants to change my mind about photography, / taking pictures. DOUBLE U. TEE. EFF. I always start crying after she mentions it. today while i was getting my physical she was looking through a magazine and she was like, " Why don't you just become a cook instead? culinary arts? " and i was like "they have that at my school. " and she's like "there you go then!" and then i kind of got sensitive and shouted "DID YOU JUST NOT HEAR WHAT YOU SAID TO ME?"
I mean c'mon, it's really offensive. I'm trying to do what I love, and she's there to stop me. I know she's my mom, and she needs my respect. but how can I respect her if she can't respect what I love, and respect my own decisions?
.. Fxck money.
Black friday -
Rosewood Royale's Black Friday sale starts next Wenesday on Nov 26-28.Gives everyone a chance to come by the shop and get everything they need for a cheaper price earlier. Everything BUT the NEW HOLIDAY apparel is on sale. Store opens up at 9 o'clock on Friday. NEW PWA x ROSEWOOD ROYALE shirt coming out on Black Friday.Hoping to see everyone here..btw what is everyone else's plans for Black Friday?
so uh, yeah.. apple pie?
there's a few cuties on my rooftop
took physical for basketball, stupid indian doctor wouldn't let me picture him
saw julliene and her sexy dad
"chicken" legs :)
dinner
I mean c'mon, it's really offensive. I'm trying to do what I love, and she's there to stop me. I know she's my mom, and she needs my respect. but how can I respect her if she can't respect what I love, and respect my own decisions?
.. Fxck money.
Black friday -
Rosewood Royale's Black Friday sale starts next Wenesday on Nov 26-28.Gives everyone a chance to come by the shop and get everything they need for a cheaper price earlier. Everything BUT the NEW HOLIDAY apparel is on sale. Store opens up at 9 o'clock on Friday. NEW PWA x ROSEWOOD ROYALE shirt coming out on Black Friday.Hoping to see everyone here..btw what is everyone else's plans for Black Friday?
so uh, yeah.. apple pie?
there's a few cuties on my rooftop
took physical for basketball, stupid indian doctor wouldn't let me picture him
saw julliene and her sexy dad
"chicken" legs :)
dinner
hmm today in earth science i was talking to victoria, as always. she brought up how excited she was looking forward to the rest of her holiday seasons haha. well she has a lot of plans and things to look forward to and i'm still sitting here wondering and thinking about what i'm doing. it's so hard to keep up with the spontaneous and unpredictable. i wish i had plans.
peace, love, and happiness bitche$
outrO~
peace, love, and happiness bitche$
outrO~
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