yesterday i was very "Depressed" as I stated to the whole world.
Reason? Because, I felt as if I was leaving behind the friends I had, for new ones. But I soon "realized" that I can't always have it my way, and can't always expect things to just stay the same. It took awhile and a lot of convincing, and people's advice for me to configure the system. I just find it funny how new friends seem to care more than the previous whom you thought were extremely close to.
I make an effort to try to keep up with friendships. "I'm not trying enough" is what I told myself. But whats the point if the other person doesn't send feedback. Friendships aren't a one-person handle. It takes two to tango. If you're just gonna keep brushing me off, making up different reasons to ignore my invites; I just need to stop. As if any of you invite me anywhere anyway, & I'm satisfied to know that maybe I am at fault as well, but I've done what I can. I just wish it were easy for you to see that I take our "best friendship" pretty seriously. I know we're usually just fun & games, but to see what's been done disperse and fall, makes me realize that what we had was fun, what we had was real. but it couldn't have really been real fun.
&Yes, I'm speaking on behalf one person.
As I said I was very depressed yesterday, I somehow find comfort in.. the inevitable but true: boys. I think that when I'm usually sad or something, they're what I find myself compatible with-- more than girls. I decided to throw myself back into the spitgame category & start talking to guys again. & so I did. I wind up and end back at where I started. This reminds me of the many repetitive stages we go through in life. Our relationship is just another rubber band, & bounces back to place after being stretched out. But after awhile, it just has to rip for being too weak. What happens after that? You get a new one. ..but with me, I just tape it. And anyway, I already have a rubberband ball. Therefore in other terms, Even though there are plenty of other rubber bands, I still choose you & still choose to fix what's broken. I know I'm stubborn when it comes to this but I'm willing to try. As always.
&double Yes, I'm speaking on behalf one person. Okay maybe two.
Reason? Because, I felt as if I was leaving behind the friends I had, for new ones. But I soon "realized" that I can't always have it my way, and can't always expect things to just stay the same. It took awhile and a lot of convincing, and people's advice for me to configure the system. I just find it funny how new friends seem to care more than the previous whom you thought were extremely close to.
I make an effort to try to keep up with friendships. "I'm not trying enough" is what I told myself. But whats the point if the other person doesn't send feedback. Friendships aren't a one-person handle. It takes two to tango. If you're just gonna keep brushing me off, making up different reasons to ignore my invites; I just need to stop. As if any of you invite me anywhere anyway, & I'm satisfied to know that maybe I am at fault as well, but I've done what I can. I just wish it were easy for you to see that I take our "best friendship" pretty seriously. I know we're usually just fun & games, but to see what's been done disperse and fall, makes me realize that what we had was fun, what we had was real. but it couldn't have really been real fun.
&Yes, I'm speaking on behalf one person.
As I said I was very depressed yesterday, I somehow find comfort in.. the inevitable but true: boys. I think that when I'm usually sad or something, they're what I find myself compatible with-- more than girls. I decided to throw myself back into the spitgame category & start talking to guys again. & so I did. I wind up and end back at where I started. This reminds me of the many repetitive stages we go through in life. Our relationship is just another rubber band, & bounces back to place after being stretched out. But after awhile, it just has to rip for being too weak. What happens after that? You get a new one. ..but with me, I just tape it. And anyway, I already have a rubberband ball. Therefore in other terms, Even though there are plenty of other rubber bands, I still choose you & still choose to fix what's broken. I know I'm stubborn when it comes to this but I'm willing to try. As always.
&double Yes, I'm speaking on behalf one person. Okay maybe two.
Hehehe, I really liked this for some reason.
&if you haven't already
&if you haven't already
moving on to a better day
justin, alfred, and brian show up in front of my house having a jerk sesh.
I had to give justin a strawberry milkshake.
I had to deal being the third wheel, always. & always left out.
softball poses.
brian's best friend.
we decided to finally leave, and we went to costco.
I ate a chicken bake, and gave the rest to Justin to finish up.
alfred is gay, because i'm just a rebound friend.
the gangs all hereee~ nawt.
lurkers.
brian is so coooOl.
no
stallion.
cutie.
we went to puente hills mall..
to have a study sesh~ with justin & alfred.
justin's notes / drawings
Brian.
alfred and justin ditched me and brian to hangout with their own friends.
actual studying.
baby
alfred photography.
o_o
we went to famous footwear, so we can steal shoelaces.
justin's love seats.
beastie boy.
fishermen.
we went to TJ MAX
black boy aka just E-Z jerkin on da trashcan~
justin's signature pose.
wow you really look like a black boy here, justeez
playing softball.
UMMM. me and justin are like, so cute. MHM!
we went outside, and realized it was raining.
raining calls for photoshoot
thanks justin.
brian's a beast
-______-. i'm left out again
monkey boi
cutie boy
rain.
in da car, end of day.
this is what i came up on today, minus shoelaces.
I had to give justin a strawberry milkshake.
I had to deal being the third wheel, always. & always left out.
softball poses.
brian's best friend.
we decided to finally leave, and we went to costco.
I ate a chicken bake, and gave the rest to Justin to finish up.
alfred is gay, because i'm just a rebound friend.
the gangs all hereee~ nawt.
lurkers.
brian is so coooOl.
no
stallion.
cutie.
we went to puente hills mall..
to have a study sesh~ with justin & alfred.
justin's notes / drawings
Brian.
alfred and justin ditched me and brian to hangout with their own friends.
actual studying.
baby
alfred photography.
o_o
we went to famous footwear, so we can steal shoelaces.
justin's love seats.
beastie boy.
fishermen.
we went to TJ MAX
black boy aka just E-Z jerkin on da trashcan~
justin's signature pose.
wow you really look like a black boy here, justeez
playing softball.
UMMM. me and justin are like, so cute. MHM!
we went outside, and realized it was raining.
raining calls for photoshoot
thanks justin.
brian's a beast
-______-. i'm left out again
monkey boi
cutie boy
rain.
in da car, end of day.
this is what i came up on today, minus shoelaces.
john b.♥
ha-ha i got a crush on you, ha-ha boiiiii. :)
SUCCESSFUL TUESDAY.
ha-ha i got a crush on you, ha-ha boiiiii. :)
SUCCESSFUL TUESDAY.
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