fuck, don't mind what i write -- I'm outta my mind lately. ↓
I'm waayyyyy too lazy to give you a good full update, it's fucking 5 in the morning hahah.
Hmm Listen to the song, yo :)
I'm waayyyyy too lazy to give you a good full update, it's fucking 5 in the morning hahah.
Hmm Listen to the song, yo :)
So Lately, I've been doing A little bit of this, A little bit of that. I've been contemplating about life, and all the good works. I noticed that I haven't been as crazy as I used to be, nor the person I used to be -- Change. Change has been flowing around in the air, it seems to be this season's theme. Yeah, yada yada yada-- I'm just trying to say, a lot of people are changing, better or worst. It doesn't bother me too much, except my lovey doveys who are beginning to change & I don't want them to. This process is like, so inevitable. I challenge the selfishness that I attain during these trials, I just seriously turn my back on it. "There are better things to worry about." Life has boasted upon some great people on me, and I yet still take everything for granted. I deserve a spanking~
My life is exactly at it's most content stage. I've been stressing over nothing lately, Probably just stressing about being stressed. -.- & I've become so chill, laidback, but so mean~ Especially to my parents, I keep forgetting about respect. and I don't know why I ignore, or act up towards them. Damn, I'm such a bitch. Well, Finals just ended. I think I did alright -- except for the science final.. epic fail dude~ but it's alright. It's another learning experience for me. I hate being labeled as a freshmen. Why can't everyone just be equal, and not care about the lower class upperclass men shit, I think it's sofa king stupid. And since I'm a freshmen, I guess I'm less attractive when it comes to the seniors. WOW, epic lame-o.
There are so many things in life taken for granted. I just found out one of my close friend have cancer. There's so many phases of growing up. I just wish things came slower, but I'm finding out things don't easily come my way. -- They used to, I can honestly say that. I'm just not ready for anything :/ Scared of commitment, scared of falling in love, scared of trying something new, scared of getting older, scared of losing loves, I'm scared. Or maybe I'm just too sensitive. --I really don't know what's going on with me. I don't even go out, or hangout with my friends normally. Actually, I question who my friends are. That's how far I'm going. The word I've been verbalizing lately is Self-Pity. It's just I've been feeling sorry for myself, And for no reason. I need to quit, but lately there hasn't been a friend who can tell me "dude wtf, shut up and move on", you know, those kind push button type of kids.. Except, I try to do that for myself. -.- Fuck Myself, I hate that I'm over-thinking, and acting stupid. "Thanks Blogspot, You've officially captured my blogging state of mind." Hmm, I love venting.
I Don't take pictures anymore.
Oh btw, Photography is an official hype. GOOD JOB!!1
There are so many things in life taken for granted. I just found out one of my close friend have cancer. There's so many phases of growing up. I just wish things came slower, but I'm finding out things don't easily come my way. -- They used to, I can honestly say that. I'm just not ready for anything :/ Scared of commitment, scared of falling in love, scared of trying something new, scared of getting older, scared of losing loves, I'm scared. Or maybe I'm just too sensitive. --I really don't know what's going on with me. I don't even go out, or hangout with my friends normally. Actually, I question who my friends are. That's how far I'm going. The word I've been verbalizing lately is Self-Pity. It's just I've been feeling sorry for myself, And for no reason. I need to quit, but lately there hasn't been a friend who can tell me "dude wtf, shut up and move on", you know, those kind push button type of kids.. Except, I try to do that for myself. -.- Fuck Myself, I hate that I'm over-thinking, and acting stupid. "Thanks Blogspot, You've officially captured my blogging state of mind." Hmm, I love venting.
I Don't take pictures anymore.
Oh btw, Photography is an official hype. GOOD JOB!!1
I want to start editing my pictures on the camera now.
So I attempted taking a picture for mark rayos..
[I don't use photoshop... or a picture edit device, It's just on the camera]
Umm.. I messed with the D-Lighting & color balance.
Sorry for my Ugliness.
And then i wanted a default picture, but ehhh..
1-24-09
[I don't use photoshop... or a picture edit device, It's just on the camera]
Umm.. I messed with the D-Lighting & color balance.
Sorry for my Ugliness.
And then i wanted a default picture, but ehhh..
1-24-09
today i woke up around 8ish and it felt weird. Weird because it was another gloomy, Twilight-scenary type day, haha. I don't like the rain too much. So uhh.. today was the day I get to go to the dunkxchange. I found unread text messages on my phone from a couple of random boys, and My close friends didn't seem to want to hangout with me at the Dunkxchange today :/ lame lame lame.. I got ready and cleaned my room and all, then picked up Patrick & Kevin to go to fullerton's Incahoots. I didn't buy anything really, I just followed Kevin and Patrick most of the time, but I got to see a whole bunch of old faces. haha, AND ex-boyfriends mhhm.. The Dunkxchange wasn't too much of the business -- I miss how it was 4 years ago. Fuck this economy. Soo-- We got bored, and I really wanted to eat at Guppy House but no one was down. I got tired of patrick and kevin, so I just dropped them off home. It was sad because my mom had to drive from Hawaiian Gardens in Long Beach to pick me up, drop me off the friends, Then drop me off at home.. eh? Of course she had to drive back to Hawaiian Gardens.. Hmm. The rest of my day consisted of Myspace, texting, being scared home alone, phone calls, and now -- blogging.
Texting Mark Rayos. [Umm.. he's just a friend, if you're wondering]
I Found Nemo :)
FOR SALE: Shimizus sz 6.5 vnds - OFFER
[dude i just totally sneezed on my shoulder right now, hahahah]
Hmmm.. !
Didn't cop as much stuff as i should've from--
"KUYA I'M THIRSTY.."
my brother is SO CUTE, I SWEAR.
he set a bed full of rose petals, the desk, and twilight magazine, a card& omg!
& yes, my brother's gf was surprised.
so I was home alone after-- My dog was waiting at the front door, really scary..
& to end my night, I was on the phone with carla.. who stopped talking to me after she got "tired"
...just kidding. she didn't end my night. --Edit--
I fucking hate ANDY >:| teehee,
and JONATHAN PHAM >:| because they were teasing me the whole night, ahaha
I Found Nemo :)
FOR SALE: Shimizus sz 6.5 vnds - OFFER
[dude i just totally sneezed on my shoulder right now, hahahah]
Hmmm.. !
Didn't cop as much stuff as i should've from--
"KUYA I'M THIRSTY.."
my brother is SO CUTE, I SWEAR.
he set a bed full of rose petals, the desk, and twilight magazine, a card& omg!
& yes, my brother's gf was surprised.
so I was home alone after-- My dog was waiting at the front door, really scary..
& to end my night, I was on the phone with carla.. who stopped talking to me after she got "tired"
...just kidding. she didn't end my night. --Edit--
I fucking hate ANDY >:| teehee,
and JONATHAN PHAM >:| because they were teasing me the whole night, ahaha
Epic Lame.
Goodnight.
Goodnight.
Good Morning.
Bye.
Bye.
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